I took Nyquil last night before passing out into a slumber of weird dreams. It was one of those nights where you dream so much that you feel like so much has happened. I felt like I saw almost everyone in my life appear in my dream... a bummer I don't really remember what I actually dreamed about though. But I'm glad I woke up feeling a bit more refreshed. My sore throat is still there but I woke up feeling slightly more up today. Now I'm blasting Jay Chou in the background while I work a bit. It's these mornings where the sun is shining bright through the window and where I have a calm sense that everything will be okay. Maybe my life will be alright.
I never understood that as I was entering my 30s, my anxiety was slowly growing and creeping up on me. For a while, I was unable to identify what was causing my change in sense of security and stability. But ever since I moved out, I have had plenty of time to reflect about what has been happening. It's weird that it is only when I am alone that I can really see what has been going on.
No comments:
Post a Comment