A second chance

I've been having recurring dreams about my mom getting a second chance- she is still terminal in the dream but she just has more time. It's nice because I am able to tell her all the things I didn't tell her in real life but it makes me very sad. I just wake up feeling very down.

I'm glad I have so many pictures of her during her last weeks. I like to look through them because it makes me remember everything that has happened. Lots of mixed emotions because there were joyous times- when the relatives were in town, and sad times- when she was in pain and discomfort. Even though it's not the best memory, it is the strongest and clearest one I have of her. Ma, I miss you so much...