Mixed feelings

Time will never take away the sorrow I feel but it can help me reconcile with everything that has happened. I feel less rage and anger towards my dad now but I still cannot forgive him for his wrongs. I don't think I ever can, but who knows, I may think differently ten or twenty years from now. All I know is that I am more so in terms with my emotions now. I still get very sad often and it still feels very surreal to me. My pending departure from LA has stirred up even more emotions. I am very excited and happy to be moving in with Brett but very sad that I will be leaving my brothers and all my dear friends. Even though all my feelings and memories of my mom lie within me, I still feel sad that I am leaving... her grave, her belongings, and her life in LA.